limerence, as a kind of illness

limerence, to me is the
obsessive romantic or non-
romantic attraction to
the idea of someone who is unavailable
inherently, an
all-consuming fantasy of someone
that you become addicted to

suddenly there's this aura around someone
that feels like it's the answer
to all the problems and pain in your life

it isn't even necessarily to do with that person but
it can be more the longing
for something impossible
as a way to escape the possibility of real rejection
and real pain, think of it as protecting
your heart by chasing after something

that could never really hurt you
but recreating the pain
that you experienced
constantly by
reliving
your own abandonment
wounds

so it's a journey through the process of
limerence as a kind of illness
and a mental state

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/m002lf1r